The Predate Vlog
I’m still uncomfortable with some of the language that’s being tossed around but after communicating my inhibitions I am ready to go on a second date. Part of me is just breathing a sigh of relief that I don’t have to go on another first date.
Post Second Impressions Vlog
I’m really enjoying every minute of this evening.
So I pop out of the loo at the Curzon, and I’m the very last one. “Did I take too long? I was last in the queue!”
He says, “Where do you want to go now? There’s this bar near Canary Wharf with good cocktails.. There’s also Beaujolais..” We’ve already talked about going to Beaujolais, a French wine bar near the theater, and I’m kind of creeped out by the bar in Canary Wharf coming from now where….he not so subtley sent me his address in South Quay when we talked about which cinema to go to…..as if trying to make it relevant information. He shows off his French with the barmaids and orders pate, but we don’t talk about France. I tell him the first time I had pate was in Vietnam.
We talk about going to India……he dated an Indian woman before, someone from Mumbai, and visited her family there. I try to get information about his past relationships….how many long, how long, with who? I want to see the patterns or atleast a learning process. He refuses.
He impresses me by giving me his angle on Indian politics, and sort of horrifies me by having a different opinion on Arundhati Roy, but then I’m just impressed that he’s constructed an opinion.
I ask about his mom, who he claimed had ‘a political past.’ He describes his family moving away from Brixton to the suburbs after the first two years of his life and his mom becoming disconnected and depressed. I wonder if that means he would never isolate a woman. His parents called it quits when he was 16 after he decided to go to school in Wales. Then I realize that he’s lived most of his life as an only child, and something clicks for me. His personality is very,very, much like an only child..and so is mine. I once dated a middle child who I thought was very attentive and a good listener, until he told me how self absorbed and obnoxious I was. I fantasize that the GC and I could be tremendously entertaining as a partnership of obnoxious only children, colorful internal monologues crashing against another as we wrestle for center stage: like a reunion with an unknown sibling or a phantom limb. I see us together, not ‘only’ anymore.
I’m already worrying about telling him of the blog. There’s something excitable and self important about his personality that I feel might not take it well, and I think that little high voice shouting at me would be quite upsetting. I ask him, “So what would make you angry?” He says “That would be telling wouldn’t it?”
It’s 11 pm and Beaujolais is closing. I feel high in the moment and I don’t want things to end just there.. .I’ve just started to feel hope that this is going somewhere. We could stay out another hour and I could still get home on public transport. He mentions the bar in Canary Wharf again and I let myself trust him this time.
Getting Carried Away Vlog
The worst thing that happened: he was on top of me trying to do something I did not want him to do. I told him to stop and that it hurt. He talked to me like I was a seven year old getting her stitches out, telling me that I was a good girl and I was doing very well. He did not stop until I resorted to biting him and pinching him as hard I could.
When he was lying in bed I told him that he was very pretty and looked like Adonis. He said that I had to stop saying that and tell him that he was handsome. I understand why he kept asking if he ‘dominated me’.
I told him I liked him three different times, looking into his eyes. On the third time, He said “I know, and I said I like you too, but If you say that again, you’re going to scare me.”
I liked seeing him in his boxer briefs making breakfast for me in the kitchen, strutting like a redheaded cupid. It made me want to distract him endlessly with my lips and finger tips. It also made me want to cook him breakfast, a lot of breakfasts. There were boxes of dosa and uttapam mix on the side of the hob. He spread his father’s fruit confit on my toast.
We had a long, complex, kiss good bye. I told him he looked snappy as he went to his interview. He said he would miss me.
I waited 3 days before I sent him a message about a Truffaut film playing in Brixton which would be introduced by Richard Ayoade. We had both agreed at Beaujolais we would be interested in seeing this. He did not respond. I spent the rest of the day and part of the next two crying.
In my research, I have only discovered two types of men in London: those who don’t want to be around me, and those who pretend that they like me long enough to sleep with me, and then notice, quite casually, that they don’t want to be around me.
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